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Jan. 19th, 2009 11:22 pm Chapter 7 - Sai's story

Sai found himself sitting on a fallen tree trunk, in a place that was painfully familiar. He and Mai had used to come here to spend time together, talking, or staying silent while he brushed out her long black hair, so much like his own. The trees around him were alive with the music of birds and sunlight filtered through the leaves, turning the creek in front of him into liquid gold.

 „Aniki“ a voice called from behind him. „Mai“ he whispered, turning around to face the girl running towards him, her childlike laugh filling the air, her bare feet lightly landing on the grass. She had always been energetic, he remembered with sadness.

 „aniki“ she said again, coming to a halt in front of him, her beautiful face spread in a smile.  Up close he could see that she had changed. She didn't look like the thirteen year old girl who had taken her life, but like the fifteen year old she should have been.

 „aniki, aniki, why are you crying?“ her small pale hand touched his cheek. He caught it there and pulled here into an almost bone-crushing hug. „I’ve missed you so much“ he whispered into her hair. He let go of her, looking into dark green eyes that were filled with laughter and warmth. She was the little girl he used to know. The little sister he had adored. „it's ok Sai-aniki, I'm happy where I am….I'm not allowed to talk about it though.“ he nodded in understanding. She was happy. That was all that mattered.

„aniki, brush my hair? You haven't done it in so long….“ She trailed of. Sai nodded again. Anything she wanted, he would give her. She sat in front of him, handing him a brush he hadn't seen and he started to brush her hair gently, settling into a comfortable rhythm he had thought he had forgotten...one that had been as natural as breathing, once.

 

„I killed him“ he said suddenly. „ the one who hurt you. I carved out his heart“ he said, hoping desperately that it would make her happy, that she'd understand, and not be scared of him.

 

„I know aniki.“ She said, turning to look at him. Her eyes held sadness. „ and I know that you don't let people in anymore, that you don't let yourself feel anymore. That the only emotion you feel is when you kill vampires. You're making the world safer for others, and  I'm so proud of you for that. But…..you must stop grieving me aniki, you have to. Let at least one person into your life. You won't be joining me for a long time, and I want you to find happiness on Earth“

„there is no happiness for me without you Mai.“

„yes there is.“ She stated firmly. Voices broke into the serenity of the glade. „ They're calling you aniki. Be well, find happiness, and remember that I'll always be your little imouto“ She kissed his lips, the chaste kiss of a sister, and stepped back. He watched as she and the clearing faded, his hand stretched out towards her in silent longing. The voices grew louder. They were calling him „Blades“…no not him. They were calling the person they thought he was. The name he had chosen.

 

Sai woke up with a splitting headache. He felt as though his head was too small for his brain. His face was wet. He touched his cheek. Tears. He hadn't cried….not since…..

„thank the gods, you're awake.“ A familiar velvet voice said from next to him. He turned his head, in time to see Kyuubi jump down from a chair next to his bed. „the gods don't have as much to do with it as Mai.“ He answered without thinking. „Mai?“ Kyuubi asked confused. „forget it kitsune“ he said, inwardly cursing himself for the slip.  Then his sister's words came back to him.  'let at least one person into your life' a distant echo. He looked around, recognizing the infirmary. „what day is it?“ he asked Kyuubi. „Friday afternoon to be precise.“ Sai nodded. “You’ve been asleep for two days”

 

Sai noticed something decidedly odd after the kitsune had spoken.

Kyuubi being a half demon could hide his emotions from Sai. Few could do that since Sai was an empath. Kyuubi was always well guarded, but now his walls were down. Sai could feel a strange mixture of emotions from the other boy. Agitation, worry, nervousness, fear…and affection. Affection aimed at him.“ Kyuubi…“ he said hesitantly „ your walls are down“  „I know“ Kyuubi told him, gold eyes looking deep into blue-black ones. „I'm tired of hiding behind barriers“. Kyuubi sat on Sai's bed. „I…“ Kyuubi placed a finger on Sai's lips, silencing him. „you don't have to say anything, I know you don't feel the same way about me. „ kyuubi replaced his finger with his lips. He kissed Sai softly, tenderly. The kiss felt good. Pulling away he smiled uncertainly at Sai „ but I was hoping you'd give me a chance to change that „  Kyuubi's request had Sai feeling…he wasn't sure what it was, but it was there…and it felt good. Sai didn't say anything for a long time. Then.. 

„Mai was my little sister…. “He began.                                  

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Feb. 8th, 2008 07:14 pm

 

 

MASTER

 

They say I'm insane,

Just because I crave it,

Just because I yearn for it,

I call out for pain

 

They don't want to understand,

That it makes me feel whole,

The beatifull blood running down my hands,

Soothes my raw red soul.

 

What I crave is a lover,

One who'd share my need,

Yet he'd be my opposite,

The one who'd do the deed.

 

My nightmares are fillled with lovers,

Who are gentle and kind,

Who hold me close under the covers,

And destroy my very mind.

 

My dreams are filled with a lover,

Who keeps me tightly bound,

Above me he hovers,

Eliciting forbidden sounds.

 

His face is in shadow,

No words do we speak,

My breathing grows shallow,

As I reach my peak.

 

Afterwards he holds me,

And soothes my inflamed skin,

Kissing the places he marked me,

And still he is firm.

 

He smiles down at me,

And softly whisperes „pet“

Never do I feel as free,

As when he calls me that.

 

Sleep, Master,sleep.

You deserve your rest,

While I watch you breathe,

The rise and fall of your chest.

 

Sleep, Master sleep,

With the scent of my blood in the air,

And the warmth of my blood on your skin,

Your hand twisted in my hair.

To us, pain and pleasure akin.

 

 

 

 

 

 

PET

 

They say that I'm twisted,

Just because I need it,

Just because I crave,

To cause another pain.

 

They don't understand,

What to me is like air,

The need to another brand,

Or tie them to a chair.

 

What I need is a lover,

One who'd share my craving,

Yet he'd be my opposite,

One who'd need the breaking.

 

My nighmares are filled with lovers,

Who try to take the lead,

Who act like my equals,

And choke me like weeds.

 

My dreams are filled with a lover,

Who obeys my every command,

Lets himself be bound,

And submits to my hands.

 

His face is a mask of pleasure,

Small sounds spill from his lips,

My movements are no longer measured,

As into me my climay rips.

 

Afterwards I hold him,

And gently soothe the pain,

the cuts and the bruises,

that made him call my name.

 

I smile down at him,

And softly whisper „pet“

He looks up at me,

His eyes are slightly wet.

 

Sleep, Pet, sleep.

Let your body heal.

Always and forever,

Before me you will kneel.

 

Sleep,Pet,sleep,

Safe in my arms,

From the outside world,

Which us would wish to harm.

You who share my sin.


AN/ I havent updated in ages and now that I did its these crazy poems.....I freaked myself out when I read them...ahhh well.

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Nov. 4th, 2007 02:41 pm chapter 6: when the sun sets

Chapter 6: When the sun sets
Sai's POV
 
Another day of lessons gone by, and another night of hunting to look forward to. It was the only thing he looked forward to. The one thing that could make his heart beat faster, his adrenaline course through his veins like liquid fire. Even sex, the thing he loved best after putting his life on the line,after dancing with death, paled next to the how he felt when fighting the demons,knowing one wrong move could end in his demise.
Sai had no real opinions, no morals to speak of. The only thing he truly despised was rape,as his little sister had suffered that fate, finally taking her own life because she couldn't live with the shame.
 
She and Sai had been close, only a year apart. When she had died, he had stopped feeling everything but an icy rage. The first life he had taken, and so far the only human one, had been that of her rapist.
It had brought him satisfaction, cutting out the monster's heart while he still lived, but that in itself had been empty. It hadn't brought Mai back. Nothing would. After her death he stopped letting others close, stopped feeling. And he never talked about Mai again
 
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Sai found himself with his back to a wall, surrounded by three Class 4 demons. They circled him, slowly closing in.he could see the rest of the team behind them. Sasuke and Naruto fighting back to back as always. Neji fighting two Class 5 demons with his katana,his face impassive, his moves fluid. Kiba in his wolf form ravaging another,his fangs glinting red in the faint torchlight. Shikamaru throwing shurikens with practised ease, while he levitated above everyone, his back to Sai. Raido using a long whip to make two vampires dance around him, howling and cursing as the leather cut though flesh.
'not getting any help from them.'  He thought to himself.
He pulled out his two identical Sai, the blades sharing both his name and code name.
„my name is Blades“ he told the vampires flatly. One of them snorted.
„What makes you think we care?“ he rasped out.
„ I believer everyone deserves to know the name of the one who will take their life“
With that he fell silent, and only his twin blades moved in his hands, their dance as deadly and beautiful as of death itself. His hands moved independantly of each other, the blade in each one seemingly belonging to a diffrent person, but both doing the same letal dance.
Sai could feel the eyes of the vampires on him as they drew their weapons. All three used katanas, albeit none with Neji's grace nor skill. He waited for them, his legs apart for balance.
The one in the middle was obviously the leader. The tallest, he was two heads taller than Sai, his hair was black, and his eyey were red in bloodlust. Like all vampires he was pale, also like all vampires, he exuded a raw animalistic attraction.
Sai had no problem ignoring it though. This was what he lived for after all. The kill.
The vampire was saying something, but was abruptly cut of when Sai's blade found his heart, turning him into a pile of ashes.
The other two vampires shrieked, their eyes turning the electric blue of vampire grief.
'he was their sire' Sai realized. The vampires turned on him, their anger and grief making them stronger, untill the were Class 5. Sai watched as they both advanced, one on each side.
He raised his blades again, twirling and parrying the thrusts of the vampire lordlings. He was put on the deffensive, waiting for an opening, knowing he would need one soon, before he wearied of fighting.he got it as on of the vampires left his side open.sai's blade quikly found his heart dusting him.but in the mere seconds it took Sai to kill the vampire, the other had dropped it's katana and grabbed Sai's arms from behind.
The vampire's fangs grazed his neck as he whispered „I'll turn you, just so you can spend eternity as my fuck toy“ Sai shivered. It wasn't in fear, he didn't feel fear, but in excitment. Adrenaline induced excitment.
Suddenly the vampire exploded and and a voice like velvet said „he's too hot to be your fuck-toy leech“The redhead sniffed disdainfully.
„Demon, where are the others“
Kyuubi puted „not even a thank you?“he shrugged“ they're in the next room, fighting for a change.“ Kyuubi said sarcastically. Sai just nodded. The fighting in this rooom had died down and the rest of the team was making sure that everyone was okay. They took care of their own. Naruto was healing a large shiny burn on Shikamaru's cheek. In a matter of seconds it was gone.
Sai felt dizzy and grabbed Kyuubi's arm to steady himself, the room started going in and out of focus, and he could hear Kyuubi talking but the words were disjointed, meaningless. He felt himself fall to the floor and Kyuubi catch him. Then everything turned black.
 
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A/N a cliffy...I'm mean... oh well.
 
Gaara: did you really have to make them fight vampires? Ther was no blood! *pouts*
PD: it's less messier this way Gaara.
Neji: easy for you to say...I'll be getting the dust out of my hair for ages..*sigh*
PD: Gaara why don't you help him out? You know where the shower is.
Gaara *with calculating look in his eyes* lets go Neji...and you *points finger at PD* no peaking, watching and/or filming
PD:*pouts*:meanies
Neji*smirks*: you got that right. *pulls Gaara away.*
 
PD *turns to readers* : i know that this fic is getting a lot of hits and I'd really like some reviews..even if it's just constructive criticizm. I need to learn what I'm  doing wrong in order to improve ya know? Ah well.....and if anyone is interested in betaing let me know. My e-mail is beladara@yahoo.com
JA NE.

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Nov. 4th, 2007 02:40 pm chapter 5: lessons part 2

Chapter 5:lessons:part 2.
 
Haku PovHaku was lying down on his bed utterly exhausted. Shino was in a very simmilar position on his bed.
„I...can't...move....“Haku groaned out in between pants „that....gym teacher...is crazy...I can't...Believe...he made...us....do...one thousand..push-ups..on the first day“
Suddenly there was a knock on the door. “come in“ Haku called out, glad he hadn't locked the door and wouldn't need to get up.
„I'm guessing you had Gai-sansei last period ne? The freshmen always do.“ The one called Indigo said, smiling sympthetically.
Haku and Shino groaned in unison. „do not mention that madman's name...ever“ Haku said. Indigo chuckled. „you'll get used to him after a while...though I think that Lee-san is the only one who actually enjoys his lessons. Anyway I brought you somethin to help with the muscle pain, otherwise you won't be able to move tomorrow.“
 He put two identical tubes on each of their beds. „here you go..and help each other out with the places you can't reach, otherwise you'll still be sore tomorrow.“
Shino looked shocked. Indigo noticed.
„look, youre roomates and fresnmen. Both facts will drive you closer every day. Especially since both of you are shy. So cut the false modesty and make it easier on yourselves ok? It'll help you in the long run.
I have to go. There's a guardian's (A/N think of a student council crossed with prefects) meeting in ten minutes and God knows how long that's gonna last...and get some rest you two, you deserve it“
He smiled al them, waved and left.
Haku picked up the tube gingerly, his body protesting at every little movement. Uncapping it carefully he squeezed some of the clear gel-like substance into his left hand and proceeded to rub it into his right arm; from shoulder to wrist.
Shino looked at Haku's blissful expresion and followed suit. Ten minutes later they had managed to cover every milimeter of skin they could reach.
„Ano..Shino-san...would you mind rubbing this stuff into my back?“ Haku asked blushing slightly.
Shino just nodded and stood up stepping over to Haku's bed. Haku moved to the middle of his bed and shimmied out of his shirt. Shino sat behind Haku and squeezed some of the gel into his hands. He carefully spread it over Haku's back and then proceeded to rub it in gently.
Haku bit back a moan. That felt sooo good.....
Too soon in Haku's opinion, Shino was done and getting off Haku's bed.
„hey Shino-san wait, it's you turn.“
„no thanks Haku-san, I'm fine. Really. I can handle it“ he said wincing as he got up.
„Shino-san stop being a baka and get back on the bed!“ Haku ordered, pulling Shino onto the bed by his shirt.
„hai..Haku-san...but onegai don't tell anyone. Onegai“ he sounded a little lost.
Shino pulled of his shirt and Haku let out a gasp when he saw the other boy's back.
„who did this to you“ Haku asked suddenly angry. Shino's back was covered in scars. Long and thin and oddly remeniscent of a whip.
„my step-mother. She hated me..said I looked too much like my mother and that I deserved to be punished.“
Haku noticed the tears running down Shino's cheeks from under his glasses. He quickly rubbed the gel into Shino's back, then stood up and pulled the drapes on the windows, throwing the room into darkness.
He walked back to Shino and pulled off his glasses. Shino's eyes were closed but tears were still running down the boys cheeks from under his lashes. Haku sat on the bed and pulled Shino to him,hugging him to his chest. „shh, Shino-san. She won't hurt you again, I won't let her“
Haku promised. He felt oddly protective of the boy, why he couldn't explain, even to himself.
An hour later Shino was asleep and Haku found himself wondering about the colour of the other's eyes.

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Sep. 29th, 2007 01:02 pm

 

Chapter 4:lessons part 1

 

Haku's POV

 

There were already two people in the common room when Haku entered. What were their names? The mean red-head..he was Sabaku Gaara- Desert. The wierd eyed one was Hyuuga Neji-Indigo. Right. They were both dresses. Gaara in black leather pants, that clung to his body like a second skin and a tight black shirt with several safty pins. His emerald eyes were outlined in dark black kohl. he had a black spiked collar and spiked cuffs. He looked like he was going clubbing or something...damn he was hot. But then again so was everyone else...except that grasshopper guy. Haku shuddered mentally.

 

Next to Gaara, Neji looked underdressed. He was wearing casual jeans and an oxford shirt with a v-necked jumper. It looked good on him though. His hair eas pulled up into a ponytail with several strands left to frame his face.

  

„good morning“ Haku ground out nervously.

 

„good morning“ Indigo replied smiling.

 

Desert regarded him cooly for a few moments before parting his lips slightly to say „morning“ Haku breathed a sigh of relief. The redhead noticed. He smirked. „did you think I was going to insult you? Don't worry. Yesterday i was pissed for no reason and took it out on you. It wont happen again“

 

Haku noticed Neji nodding aprovingly behind Gaara and stifled a smile. He somehow knew that it was the closest thing to 'im sorry'  that he was going to get from Gaara.  „desert?“ Haku ventured „could I borrow your eye-liner? I forgot mine at home.“ Gaara just nodded and got up. He went through the door to his and Neji's room and returned a moment later with the eye-liner.  „here you go“ he said handing it to Haku. Haku thanked him and went to apply it. A few minutes later he was back with his eyes outlined thinly. He tried returning it to Gaara but Gaara waved him off saying that he had a few spare.

 

Haku's thanks were interupted when Neji started banging on people's doors and shouting. „breakfast is in ten people. In the common room now!.

That includes you raido!!!“ he added banging on the door furthest from Haku.

In under three minutes everyone was standing in the common-room, including a boy whom Haku hadn't seen before. „I was sleeping Neji!! Are you a sadist or something?“

 

Neji looked at raido with a raised eyebrow. „ you need to stop sleeping in your clothes raido. It's not healthy. And by the way breakfast is in five and school starts today.“

 

„what's the point? Not like I understand any of that shit anyway. Who are the new kids? Not their real names Neji. I doubt they'll be here long enough for it to matter. Just their code names.“

 

Neji sighed. Haku wondered if this highschool was really that tough that raido didn't think they'd last. He felt a little angry at the thought.

 

„the redhead is desert. The one with glasses is insect and the long-haired one is shinigami.“

 

„earth, anipathy and chakra. Trouble“ raido muttered.

 

Haku looked confused. „what's he talking about?“

 

„he's babbling Haku. He's still half-asleep.“

 

Haku had a feeling there was more to it than that but he decided to let it slide. Raido snorted.

„alright everyone. Lets go down to breakfast. Oh yeah, for those of you who don't know, at breakfast you sit with your dorm but lunch and dinner you can sit anywhere you like.“

 

Shino siddled up to Haku. „ I have a feeling today will be tough“ the normally silent  boy said. Haku squeezed his arm sympathetically, „we'll stick together ok?“ Shino just nodded they followed everyone to breakfast.

 

 

A/n Phew. I'm sooo sorry that my updates are late....but real life kicked in... ah well. My apologies. Anyways I'm learning japanese now so expect a lot of japanese words thrown randomly into the fic...heh. kisses

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Sep. 8th, 2007 12:57 pm Chapter 3: Secrets in the early morning

 
 
Gaara woke up to the steady breathing of a person asleep. He checked his alarm clock it read 4:47 a.m.. Great. He wasn't supposed to get up till 7. Urgh.
 He looked over at the bed next to his. Neji was peacefully asleep. Gaara snorted when he saw that the Hyuuga had braided his hair.
The boy looked a lot younger when his lavender eyes were closed. 'i wonder when he got in. Not before 3. i was awake till then'.
 
 He had wanted to get a good night's sleep,but his nightmares had once again seen fit to deprive him of much needed sleep. Knowing that he would not get any more sleep that night he got up walking noiselessly to the common room and grabbing an R.L.Stine book on the way. He sat in one of the overstuffed leather armchairs and started reading.
 
He was soon imeresed in the book and didn't hear Neji come into the common room half an hour later. He came up behind Gaara's armchair soundlessly walking on bare feet. He smiled. Gaara looked so innocent when he was reading. „couldn't sleep?“ he asked softly.
 
Gaara jumped, then turned to glare at Neji. „no“ he admitted „I never can. Keep having nightmares“ why the hell did he tell the Hyuuga about those? Not even Temari or  Kankuro knew about those. Ah well, he couldn't take the words back.
 
„so why are you up?“ Gaara asked suddenly curious.“I only sleep about half an hour every night. Insomnia“ he added. „why? Insomnia is almost always triggered by something“ Gaara pressed. Neji sat down opposite Gaara and took a deep breath.
 
 „my old roomate used to sit in the armchair you're in.“he started „he was killed last year. He got mixed up with people who were dangerous. I knew what he was doing but I didn't stop him. I thought it was his decision to make. I was his lover,but I couldn't keep him safe, or save him in the end. So I guess my insomnia is triggered by guilt.“
 
 Gaara  stayed quiet fo a few minutes, thinking about what Neji had told him. „It was his decision to make. Stop beating yourself up about it“ Gaara told Neji gruffly. Neji nodded at Gaara „thank you“ he said getting up and squeezing Gaara's shoulder in passing. „now I think I'm ready for som sleep for a change“ he said over his shoulder. „good night Sabaku-san“ Gaara contemplated his retreating back.  
 
 
 
A/n I know this is a short chapter but there's nothing I can do about it. It's not a filler, but was necissary for the relationship that later develops between Neji and Gaara. The next chapter is Haku's pov. Then it's Sai's then Neji's then Kakashi's.
 
Anyway here's something I should have put up at the beggining of the fic.
 
 
 
 
 
Name: Sabaku Gaara.
Age: 17.
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: homosexual
Power:Earth
Eye/hair color: emerald/red
 
Name: Hyuuga Neji
Age: 16
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: bisexual
Power: shadow
Eye/hair color: diffrent shades of purple/blue-black
 
Name: Uzumaki Naruto
Age: 17
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: bisexual
Power: half-demon(kitsune)
Eye/hair color:  Cerulean/blond
 
Name: Uzumaki Kyuubi
Age: 25
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: bisexual
Power: half demon (kitsune)
Eye/hair color:  Gold/crimson
 
Name: Uchiha Sasuke
Age: 18
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: homosexual
Power: fire
Eye/hair color: Onyx/black
 
Name: Uchiha Itachi
Age: 25
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: homosexual
Power: fire
Eye/hair color: red/black
 
Name: Minamino Sai
Age: 16
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: bisexual
Power:empath
Eye/hair color: blue-black/black
 
 
Name: Tatsuha Shino
Age: 15
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: bisexual (male preference)
Power: anipathy
Eye/hair color: tourquoise/dark brown
 
Name: Rock Lee
Age: 16
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: unspecified (probably asexual)
Power: tai jutsu master
Eye/hair color: brown/black
 
Name: Hatake Kakashi
Age: 31
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: bisexual
Power: teleporter
Eye/hair color:  gray-blue/silver
 
Name: Umino Iruka
Age: 28
Sex: male
Sexual orientation: homosexual
Power: weather
Eye/hair color:  honey/brown
 
Name:Inuzuka Kiba
Age: 17
Sex: male
Sexual orientation:
Power:shifter
Eye/hair color: brown/brown
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

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Sep. 1st, 2007 01:34 pm Something worth living for

Chapter 2- Of names and dorm-mates

blah/ thoughts sometimes.


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Gaara looked at the Hyuuga through narrowed eyes. Did the freak REALLY think that he could order Gaara around? Apparently he did, since he seemed to be waiting for Gaara to start walking towards the door. He shrugged. Might as well see who he was stuck with. Get it over with. Yeah, that was the only reason. Not because he respected the Hyuuga or anything. Right. He looked at the Hyuuga and sneered. The Hyuuga remained impassive. „let's go“ Gaara spit out. „after you“ the Hyuuga said.

Gaara could have sworn he saw the Hyuuga smirk but the expression ws gone as soon as it touched the boy's lips. Gaara grunted noncomitally. He passed the Hyuuga and grabbed the doorknob. Pushing the door open with more force than was necissary, he entered the common room with the Hyuuga on his heels.

The room was furnished in black and red, with cozy, overstuffed leather armchairs and couches, set around a big stone fireplace. On the wall opposite him were six desks equipped with a computer and printer each. They were also hooked up to three scanners. There were five other doors in addition to the one he had entered from. Noticing all this in a quick glance Gaara turned his attention to the people in the room.

They were all standing in the center of the common room and appeared to be interacting comfortably. His eyes traveled over a blue-eyed blond,an onyx-eyed raven, a bushy-browed grasshopper, a boy with strange markings on his face, another with a high-brunette ponytail,a boy with dark,round glasses and a raven with deep blue eyes (A/N-i decided that Sai should have blue-black eyes so that he isn't a washout of Sasuke) .

Suddenly nother boy rushed in, with long black hair that was held back by two thin braides, and delicate features. He looked like a girl. „soory I'm late“he panted „but my mum overslept“he added.
„you are aware that this is an all boys' school? Girls aren't allowed“gaara said nastily.
 the boy blushed an angry red. „hey don't be mean“ the blond said indignantly „ I think he looks cute“ he added, smiling at the boy and exposing sharp canines in the process. The brunette blushed again, this time for an entirely diffrent reason.
„stop flirting with everyone Naruto“ The onyx-eyed boy said warningly,“ you're not single anymore“
„Aww,Sasuke-teme, I was just being nice. Besides,what about the way you look at Neji?“
/So they're Naruto and Sasuke? And they're obviously together. Too bad,they're both hot./
Neji just shook his head „as if the Uchiha had a chance with me“
„as if I'd want you“ the uchiha replied but a faint smile crossed his face,making it plain that he was only teasing.
„it seemes to me that we have three new members with which to enjoy the spring-time of youth“ the grasshopper exclaimed energetically. Gaara raised his eyebrows at Neji who mouthed „ignore him“ Gaara nodded.

„Care to introduce yourselves?“ Neji the unspoken leader of the group said.

„I'm Aoyagi Haku“ the feminine boy said.

„Tatsuha Shino“ the one with round glasses.

And „Sabaku Gaara“ Gaara said with barely parted lips.

„real talkers aren't they teme?“ the blond asked rhetorically“ you should get along just fine“

Neji stepped in before the blond could continue hi teasing. „alright then“he said briskly „I'm Hyuuga Neji,the blond is Uzumaki Naruto, his boyfriend is Uchiha Sasuke,that's the surly one over there“the uchiha narrowed his eyes at the Hyuuga „the one in green is Rock Lee,the one with the tattoos is Inuzuka Kiba,the one with the ponytail is Nara Shikamaru, and the phlegmatic raven-haired idiot is Minamino Sai“

„aren't two people missing?“ shino who had been counting heads asked.
Neji shook his head „only one. Raido. He keeps himself to himself mostly and the only thing i know about him is that he failed last year so he is the oldest Senior here“

„can I go now?“ Gaara asked abruptly.
„not yet Sabaku-san. We still have to talk about ourselves and deicide on code and dorm-names-„
„code-names?“ Haku interuppted.
„everyone in the school chooses any type of code name they wish and they use it in class, on essays and so on. That way if anyone outside of your dorm doesn't like you, they're less of a hassle“ Neji explained patiently.“why don't we go by order of age since we have to say something about ourselves?“he added.

„that means I'm first. How troublesome. I am 18,have two older sisters. My favourite subject is art.and I am bi. My code-name is Clouds.“

„I am 18. I am born in december. I have an older brother and my parents ae dead. I'm gay. My boyfriend is the blonde dobe over there. Don't touch him. My code-name is Onyx“

„a little possesive there teme? Anyways I'm 17, the only biological family I have is my older brother Kyuubi. I'm bi. My fav food is Ramen and my fav colour is orange. My code-name is Fox.“

„I am 17. I am an only child. I have a dog Akamaru,but he's sleeping in the room right now. I'm bi as well. My code-name is Wolf.

„ I am 16. in the springtime of my youth. My code name is Grasshopper“

„i am 16. my parents are deceased. I have a cousin named Hinata who is very important to me.I am bisexsual and my code-name is Indigo“

„I am 16. I am gay. I love sex and am usually a bottom. My code-name is Blades“(a/n he took the code-name from his actual name. Sai is a form of weapon)

„I have a brother and sister. Both older. Iam gay. MY code name will be Desert“Neji nodded at him“suits you“he murmered.

„I am 15. I'm also bi. My position with the same gender is interchangeable. I love fighting and my weapons of choice are chakra-needles. My code name will be Shinigami.“

„I am 14. i wear these glasses because my eyes are sensitive to light. I am also bi,but with a preference of men. I prefer to top. MY code-name will be Insect“

„good“ Neji nodded in approval “ Raido's is Straw, don't use given names outside the common room and don't introduce yourselves by your given names. As for our dorm-name, we have always been called United Individuals since I was a freshman. If there aren't any objections I'd like to keep it that way“ the rest nodded. „well I need to go register our dorm-name and code-names with the Secretary.the rest of you are free to do whatever you wish to.

Gaara looked at Neji's retreating back and turned to go to his room. The freshmen followed suit.

„that Sabaku has power...I think it's earth. It's dormant but will awaken soon. I can sense it. He will be trouble“ Sai noted

„the Hyuuga will deal with him“ the Uchiha said dismissivly

„he has dark secrets that one, and his heart has a diamond wall around it,yet I can still feel the emptyness of pain and sorrow and guilt. I hope Neji will be up to it“Sai replied.

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Aug. 30th, 2007 02:36 pm Something worth living for

A/N this story is going to be my first multi-chapter fanfic.the sexual warnings start on chapter seven. I have written the fic on paper up to chapter eleven and am finishing that chapter today. But as I dislike typing it'll take me a while to get to the end of this. KISSES*blows kisses at reader* And please review. I'll type faster that way. 

established pairings:narusasunaru,genmaraido,

main pairings:Gaarakakashigaara,nejiitachi,kyuubisaikyuubi,shinohaku

Warning: this is a yaoi fic. don't like, don't read. there will be graphic lemons later on.

Rating:NC-17, or MA (whatever you're used to)

Disclaimer:I don't own Naruto!!!





beladara: I feel so accomplished right now.
Gaara:don't be. you're nothin special.
beladara: Jeez what's wrong with you? not getting any or something?
Neji*smirks*: I'm not letting him top.
beladara:lol, well on to the fic now.







Chapter 1: New surroundings

Gaara-POV

Gaara got out of his sister's BMW, not even apologizing for slamming the door. His siter Temari gout out at a more leisurly pace, closing her car door carefully. She walked around the car to the trunk and pulled out Gaara's heavy black suitcase from it. „come on Gaara“ she said softly walking through the gates of the Hidden Leaf All Boys' Academy. Gaara didn't even look at his sister in awknologment.,he just started walking after her,his hands buried in his black trousers, his black lined emerald eyes staring at his feet.

As they entered the school building Gaara could feel eyes on him, but he did nothing to meet them. There was no point. He probably wouldn't like any of them.
They arrived at the headmaster's office and Temari knocked politely. „come in“ a deep, vibrant voice called out.

Temari pushed open the door and shooed Gaara in. He glared at her. A blond man dressed casually stood up from a big mahogany work desk that was covered in papers.

„Sabaku-san, I assume? I met your sister a few weeks ago. I am Yondaime Arashi,but the students call me Arashi so you probably should as well. Your room is on the third floor,left wing. You have one roomate and every six rooms have a common room. Students are allowed to visit each other's rooms and sllepover if the occupants of said rooms don't mind. Your curfew is decided by your homeroom teacher whose name is Uzumaki Kyuubi. Any questions?“

Gaara looked at the teacher coldly „where is my uniform?“he asked through barely parted lips.

„this school doesn't have a uniform, or a dress code. I believe that students have a right to express their personalities. Otherwise I'd have to make you take of the make-up you're wearing and those lovely spikes round your arms,ne?“

Gaara was saved from answering by a knock on the door. „ah,that'll be your roomate. COME IN“he said raising his voice for the last two words. A boy with pale skin and long raven hair pulled up in a loose ponytail walked into the room. Gaara's gaze set on him for a few seconds before he sneered and lowered his eyes to the floor. His head shot back up as the colour of the boy's eyes struck him. They were lavender. He double-checked. Yes they really were lavender.
The boy had noticed the other's antics and smiled softly.“they're kind of like my family crest. All the Hyuuga's have lavender eyes“

„does it look like I care?“

„yes“ the Hyuuga replied unfazed. Gaara blinked. People rarely answered him,and if they did it was only to shout,but the Hyuuga seemed indiffrent. So he decided to try again. „I was just making sure that you really were a freak.“
„I see“ the Hyuuga said without missing a beat.
Both Arashi and Temari had stayed quiet during the exchange,but Arashi decided to step in before there was any blood-shed.
“Sabaku-san,this isyour roomate Hyuuga Neji. Neji-san this is Sabaku Gaara. I'm sure you'll get along. Neji please show Sabaku-san around the school and explain how the dormitories are set up.“
Was the mind blind or stupid? If he thought that Gaara and the lavender-eyed freak would get along he had another thing coming. Neji just nodded and motioned Gaara to follow him. Gaara walked behind Neji pulling his suitcase with him and thinking murderous thoughts.

„your sister made you take the psych-test,right?“ the Hyuuga's soft,sophisticated voice broke into Gaara's mind.“

„yes“ he answered curtly.

„well,that's how Arashi-san decides the dorms. Ther's a commonroom for every six rooms that can be accessed only from inside those rooms. The occupants of those six rooms make up one dormitory. Arashi reads the psycho-tests and decides who will work well togethor depending on their personalities,intelligence,state of mind and sexual preference. The dorms compete in marks,games and sports. There are students of all four years in the dorms and the dorms choose names for themselves. Ah here we are.“ The Hyuuga said stopping in front of a plain wooden door with the number 43 written above it.

Gaara looked up. He hadnt even noticed where they were going,since he had been to busy staring at his Doc martens.Neji opened the door and handed gaara a key identical to the one he had used to open the door. He stepped inside. Gaara followed him. „don't lose the key as there are only two. The bathroom is on the right, our bedroom is on the left and the common room is straight ahead. The others are waiting for us there. Let's go meet them“

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Aug. 1st, 2007 01:33 pm By the light of a half moon..complete..


Disclaimer:do not own Naruto..plot is mine. 

Warning;Gaara/sasuke pairing, my writing style
Rating:NC-17

A/N- I might turn this into a series if the readers want it instead of leaving it as a two-shot.



Gaara broke the kiss. And looked into Sasuke's half-lidded eyes. „ do you want this Sasuke? I will not do anything against your will.“ Sasuke looked at he red-head in surprise, but then nodded. „I want this“ he whispered. „ good“ was all Gaara said before latching on to Sasuke's neck.

 

Gaara bit down hard intent on leaving a mark so that all could see that Sasuke belonged to him. (A/N possesive little bastard isn't he?)

Sasuke cried out in a mixture of pleasure and pain.

 'since when do I enjoy pain?'

he stopped thinking as Gaara's hands found the waistband of his pants. The Sand-nin paused with his hands seconds aways from dipping into Sasuke's pants. His fingers lightly caressed the skin of his abbs. Sasuke was almost crying with want.

 

„You like this,don't you Uchiha? And you're going to enjoy it when I impale you on my cock. Who would have thought that the great Sasuke Uchiha would enjoy being a bottom?“

 

Sasuke groaned. Gaara's words were turning him on even more than he already was, even more so because what he said was true. Gaara's hands trailed upwards again the touch strangly soft, only to stop at Sasuke's collarbone and scrape downward over the skin, purposely scratching over the Uchiha's nipples with blunt nails.

 

Sasuke hissed with the pleasure the pain brought. Gaara was teasing and Sasuke couldn't take teasing at the moment. „For Kami's sake gaara, stop teasing...just DO something!!!“

Gaara chuckled darkly,  but undid the Uchiha's pants pushing them and the boxers under them around Sasuke's ankles.

 

Then he knelt in front of the Uchiha, staring at his gorgeouse cock. It was about the same size as his own, around 9 inches but thinner and at the moment it was dark with a need that was almost painfull.

 

Gaara's breath played over the head, and Sasuke whimpered. Gaara smiled to himself, before deep-throating the organ suddenly. Sasuke let out a shout that was almost a scream. He was in heaven. Gaara was swirling his tongue expertly, and every once in a while he bit down gently on Sasuke's cock, letting a little pain mix into the pleasure.

 

It seemed like an eternity and at the same time not long enough when sasuke felt a fammiliar feeling in his groin.“ Gaara...aah..I'm...gonna come“ he ground out, amid gasps of pleasure. He expected the sand-nin to draw back, but instead Gaara swirled his tongue around faster and bit down gently one last time before his mouth was filled with Sasuke's essence.  Gaara swallowed adn found that he liked the taste. He slid back up and claimed Sasuke's lips in a heated kiss. „ you taste like bitter chocolate“ Gaara whispered against his mouth.

 

„Get down on your hands and knees“ Gaara ordered. Sasuke was amazed to find himself complying without a fuss. Meanwhile Gaara had taken of his clothes and was staring at Sasuke's ass.

 

Sasuke looked over his shoulder at Gaara through half-lidded eyes full of desire. Gaara walked towards him, and Sasuke was reminded of a hunter stalking his prey.

 

'so fucking sexy'

 

Gaara sank to his knees behind Sasuke  and ran a finger down his spine, over the indent between his firm but soft cheeks. Sasuke was turned on again his cock hard. He moaned at the feeling of Gaara's finger on his skin. Then suddenly Gaara wasn't touching him but was pouring jasmine scented soap onto his fingers (A/N-gaara was here on purpose. He wanted to take a bath)

 

Sasuke looked at him over his shoulder aware of,but still not quite believing what was about to happen. One of Gaara's fingers pushed into him slowly and Sasuke forced himself to relax. He looked at Gaara again wanting to catch his emerald eyes, but gaara wasn intent on his finger, his face set in a scowl of concentration.

 

'he's beautiful'

 

Then Gaara drew his finger out completely, and Sasuke sighed with the loss. He wanted to be filled. His wishes were quickly granted when Gaara re-entered him but with two fingers this time. The feeling was divine. There was some pain, but Sasuke enjoyed even that aspect, the pain a pleasure in it's own right.  Gaara was scissoring his fingers deep inside Sasuke when he brushed over something that made the Uchiha literaly scream in pleasure.

 

„do that again“the Uchiha demanded breathelessly looking at Gaara's face. The sand-nin trained his feral gaze on the Uchiha's lust-filled inky eyes, deliberatly brushing the bundle of nerves in Sasuke. Then he pulled his fingers out . Sasuke was whimpering. Alarmed that he might have hurt Sasuke Gaara hesitantly asked „ what's wrong Sasuke“ his voice was oddly gental.

 

„I need you..inside me“ Sasuke was appaled at how he sounded, but he stopped caring as he felt the head of Gaara's cock enter him. Gaara pushed into him agonizingly slowly, no doubt trying to keep the pain at a minimum, but Sasuke wouldn't have that. He pushed back towards Gaara and impaled himself completely on his cock.

 

„move“ Sasuke ordered shortly. Gaara nodded and started rocking his hips, Sasuke meeting his every thrust. Gaara started going faster and faster, aching to find release in Sasuke's tight, wet heat.

 

Gaara changed the angle of his thrusts slightly so that he was ramming into Sasuke's prostate. Sasuke was screaming and shouting and cries of „fuck me Gaara..harder..faster...don't stop, please,anything just don't stop“ were heard leaving the Uchiha's lips. Gaara's hand snaked across the Uchiha's waist wrapping around his erection, and started to pump the in time to his own thrusts.

 

Sasuke was dying, he was sure of it. The pleasure and pain had melded into one and the world was gone leaving only himself and Gaara in existance. He could feel himself plumeting to a cliff of intense pleasure, and could tell that Gaara was also ariving from the fast, frenzied movements of his hips.

 

Gaara crested the wave of pleasure, bending down and biting the  muscle between sasuke's neck and shoulder in the moment of completion. Sasuke could feel Gaara's seed filling him, and the pain of Gaara's teeth in his skin drove him over the edge. He came screaming Gaara's name.

 

Sasuke collapsed on the floor and Gaara followed suit, taking care not to fall on the Uchiha, but rather beside him.

„ that was amazing“  Sasuke said almost reverently.

„indeed“ was Gaara's emotionless reply.

 

Sasuke was debating asking a question with himself, but in the end his curiosity was too grteat and he decided to ask.

„why did you...?“

„ why did I what Sasuke? Fuck you?“

„yes“

Gaara sighed. „because..because I wanted you for a very long time Sasuke“

 

The look on his face was as unreadable as always but his eyes spoke volumes. Sasuke could tell Gaara was scared of being rejected but Sasuke had no intention of rejecting him. There was no way he could let the best sex of his life out of it after getting a taste of pure bliss.

 

„Gaara..would you like to have dinner with me tommorrow?“ the Uhiha offered holding his breathe.The emerald eyes of the sand-nin  searched for sarcasm or anything that would turn this into a horrible joke but all he saw in the inky eyes of his lover was honesty.

„that would be...nice“ he answered uncertainly. Sasuke smiled and drew the sand nin to him and gently kissed his lips. „good“ he replied holding his lover close.

 

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Jun. 22nd, 2007 04:11 pm By the light of a half -moon

A/N This is my first fan-fic since I prefer writing original fics. Obviously I do not own Naruto. If I did there would probably be no plot and lot's of yaoi.  





Sasuke walked aimlessly through the streets of Konoha, his mind preoqupied with the usual enchanted circle of thoughts. It was growing dark, and Sasuke's alabaster skin seemed to glow in the light of the half-moon rising over the Village Hidden in the Leaves. Two years had passed since he'd returned to the village, two years since he had spilled the life-blood of his brother. A lot had changed since then. Sasuke had made ANBU under Naruto as captain. Naruto had also changed. He has grown very tall and was now about two meters in height. His eyes were the same cerulean blue, though he could, and did, let red bleed into them at will, an intimidation tactic. His canines had turned into small fangs, not quite long enough to be noticed at a casual glance, but still visibly there. He had let his blond hair grow long and wore it in a low ponytail at the nape of his neck. He was one of the most respected and loved ninja in the village now, and it was a known secret that he was Tsunade's succsesor. His other team mate on the ANBU squad was Gaara, who had refused to return to Sand as well as the captaincy of his own ANBU squad in favor of being near Naruto. Of course Sasuke wasn't happy with this arrangment, though he never said anything to Gaara since their conversations seemed to always end up taking a severe toll on the any solid objects in the vincity.He realized that the lights of Konoha had faded away and were now only pinpricks in the distance. He looked around and recognized the training ground he had first trained in as a genin. A smile tugged at his lips as he remembered his first day as a genin. He remembered the hyperactive blond dobe that had run into class and imediatly proceeded to pull a prank on Kakashi because the jounin was late. Since no one was around he allowed the smile to show. He was still walking when he found himself at the Konoha hot springs. He took of his shirt and was about to dive in when he heard an unpleasantly fammiliar voice say „isn't it a little late for swimming Sasuke-san?“ The ANBU tensed. „ What do you need, Gaara?“ he asked with all the warmth of an iceberg. The sand nin's feral green eyes seemed to dance in the pale light of the half-moon. He slowly walked towards Sasuke stopping a few paces away from him. Sasuke was feeling nervous 'he looks dangerous when he walks like that. Like a wild animal. Damn he's hot.' Sasuke shook himself mentally. 'He'd kill me if I tried to hit on him' Sasuke repeated his question. Gaara's lips stretched out into a faint smile. „I don't need anything. Uchiha“ he said simply. „ then what the fuck are you doing here?“ Sasuke asked irritated.“ I wanted to do something“ Garra said, his voice low and seductive. „And what does the great Gaara want to do?“ Sasuke was definately worried now though he didn't let it show. 'he probably wants to beat the crap out of me without witnesses' Meanwhile Gaara had taken a few more steps towards Sasuke 'Damn I'm really going to get it now.' Sasuke wished he had gone straight home like every other normal ANBU ninja after a tiring mission.  'you're not the only ANBU out' a sly voice in his mind comented. 'So is Gaara'  ' You obviously missed the word normal' Sasuke shot back at the annoying voice. Five minutes had passed and Gaara still hadn't answered, he was standing dangerously close to Sasuke now. Andrenaline was pumping through Sasuke, mixed with desire. ' I really need to get laid soon if I'm thinking of   fucking Gaara' „ Whyt's wrong?“ Sasuke taunted „ Don't tell me the great Gaara of the Sand doesn't know what he wants, or are you just scared of how it will end.“ Sasuke was sure Gaara wanted to beat him up after all what other buisness did the red-head have with him? Gaara's eyes lit up with anger, his cheeks flushing slightly. „Are you blushing Gaara?“ Sasuke challenged. Gaara snaped. He pushed sasuke against a tree pinning his arms above his head. He was so close to Sasuke, that his breath played over the Uchiha's lips, sending a tingling feeling straight into his groin. „Gaara..“ he whispered “what are you doing?“  he just wanted Gaara to move away from him so that he could control the fire in his veins. Gaara smirked     „what's wrong Uchiha? Never been this close to a man before? But it seems to me that you like it:“  'fuck, he noticed' Sasuke was panicing though you wouldn't have been able to tell from his face. „ let go of me Gaara“ he hissed. Gaara smiled „oh I think not Sasuke“ he whispered into his ear. Gaara secured Sasuke's hands with one of his own while the other travelled lower to cup Sasuke's hardness through the fabric of his pants. Gaara slowly began rubbing until a low moan escaped Sasuke's throat. „Do you want me to stop Uchiha?“ Gaara asked, his voice low. Sasuke just shook his head “ if I let your arms go will you let me continue?“ Sasuke hesitated „ I won't hurt you Sasuke“ finally the Uchiha nodded. Satisfied Gaara let his hands go and then Sasuke used his now free hands to pull Gaara flush against his body bringing the sand nin's lips down to his in a tentative kiss. Gaara was surprised but not unpleasantly so. Both he and Gaara spent the first few moments of the kiss just enjoying the feeling of the others lips, then Sasuke licked Gaara's bottom lip seeking permission to enter. Gaara opened his lips slightly allowing sasuke accsess into his mouth, but then proceeded to fight him for dominance. Gaara was aggresive and Sasuke soon gave in to his demand allowing himself to take the submissive role.Gaara nipped Sasuke's lower lip in approval. Eliciting a moan from Sasuke's throat. Gaara broke the kiss. And looked into Sasuke's half-lidded eyes. „ do you want this Sasuke? I will not do anything against your will.“ Sasuke looked at he red-head in surprise, but then nodded. „I want this“ he whispered. „ good“ was all Gaara said before latching on to Sasuke's neck.

TBC
 
I am evil stopping here. Smut next time I pwomise.

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